Was a fucking liar.

It's out in 90 minutes.

July 1st, 2023. YouTube.

Been awhile since I made a blog about my status. If you're just browsing by, I'd appreciate a short moment of your attention, just to see how I'm doing.

I've been rather busy the past few years, as evidenced by my uploading on the audio portal. However, these recent few months have seen a lot more activity in my workload, including creating a personal soundtrack that I hope gets used for a videogame someday.

On top of that, I'm also in an animation project that shows some promise. It's no doubt a derivative of BFDI, but the writing is solid. Check it out here.

Depending on how the former goes, I may be privy to posting the entire soundtrack here. Otherwise, you'll see it later :^)

I have no idea why I'm thinking about this, or why I'm lingering on these experiences, but I suppose I should just lay it all out there so I can reflect on the memory and refer to it later...

So, I've been on here for awhile. When I wasn't trolling the BBS or making music, I was trying my hand at voice acting- and given that I didn't have a great microphone at the time, I wasn't selected often for projects, but I remember fondly all the projects I participated in with a number of partners from the Voice Acting Club, back when it was more active in the forums after they migrated from here way back in the day.

At some point, my microphone situation improved, but I wasn't going anywhere with the voice acting-- variables came into play, like attending private lessons to improve your talent in the price range of $250, or some sort of contest that required arbitrary requirements to be met. Those were ok to me at the time, I could try and fail and glean some understanding from it...but what really rubbed me sore was the notion that the favoritism and cliques that people try to escape from, existed all the same on the internet.

They were never outwardly malicious. At least, publicly. There were always rumors about the group and the fact that while some of us caught a glimpse inside, we never saw the whole scene for what it was.

Some of these folks are famous now, and frankly, they're the same cutthroat ignoramuses they were at 16-17-18. They've become popular on YouTube and in Voice Acting- hell, one of em got the lead role in a videogame, and another is on a really trending animated series.

But I really can't escape the frustration that other, much more capable actors and actresses were given the cold shoulder because we didn't fit in, we were different or had different opinions/insights into things. I can remember at one instance, I was witness to a writing meeting for a popular animation series based on Super Smash Bros. That essentially culminated in the artist bad-mouthing everyone who criticized his work. It wasn't much of a surprise that he migrated to YouTube and has a moderately successful videogame channel, because nobody can criticize his art anymore, right?

Another that had joined before I left the voice acting community was nothing but boorish to me and other 'lesser' V.A.s, and did his best to avoid speaking to us, going so far as to mute us on Skype so that he only had to hear the opinions of clique members instead of the rest of us in regards to feedback.

The individual to who this clique was centered around is a well meaning person- sometimes. I mean...well, she's got her own Encyclopedia Dramatica entry, and while I'd take all of it with a big grain of salt, it speaks true to a lot of things that you can't even make a reference to the dumb projects she wrote and voice acted in while trying to be somebody bigger than herself.

I hate to say it, but it was all this Young Adult bullshit that made me walk away from the immaturity of the whole thing, the favoritism that basically propelled those certain now-famous people's portfolios while keeping people like me looking for a chance. Not bitter, but calling it how it is.

Its because of all the dumb things I witnessed in my teenage years that I scoff when someone like ProZD wants to bad-mouth Vic Mignogna or to criticize Joaquin Phoenix's performance in Joker, because it just proves my long-held belief that most Voice actors have a bone to pick with those above them, and give others in their peer group the cold shoulder. It's of no surprise to me now as it was then.

I suppose I only speak about this now because I'm probably ready to get back into voice acting. I'm older/wiser, and I've actually got money to fund the hobby, while trying to avoid the pitfalls of clique drama and favoritism I was subjected to.

I don't want to alarm anyone, but there is a skeleton.

Inside you.

RIGHT NOW.

When I started, I made music with my keyboard. And then I got a Casio. And now the Casio wants to retire. It tells me this every time I slam on the C key on the 3rd octave. BZZZzzzzzzzz

Also: Made a post in the Writing BBS, go check that out.

ALSO: I have discord. mothman47#0680

So, I've been doing this music as a hobby for awhile now. I kinda wanna do it for more than just a hobby's sake, or at least, improve the quality. I've been playing Piano for almost 10 years now, and sequencing for about that long as well.

While anyone can make a song in FL Studio with the basic kit tools, I'd like to get to the point where I can stop using the free version of software and provide users with an amazing rendition of both covers of videogames, as well as original pieces I've worked on. 

I know its a bit tasteless to ask for any help, but I figure If I want to make this a reality, I need to try. I work a Part time job as a security guard and I collect VA Disability; that helps sustain my family. What I really want is some financial elbow room to afford new music programs and instruments, to provide current quality for the video game treasures we hold dear.

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I persist. Still here, Still making music. I also wrote a sci-fi novel. Inquire if interested.

I have a new PC.

Rejoice.